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Monday, March 20, 2006

Mon, 20 Mar 2006 15:07:56 GMT

My weekend was alright.

Thurs. Nothing

Friday. Movies with Brett

Saturday. Mall w/ my dad & brother

Sunday. Stayed at my g-rents

Not gonna go in detail because no one really cares...

Brett I love you more <3
than anything in this world

Thursday, March 16, 2006

Thu, 16 Mar 2006 18:17:22 GMT

New lay.

Changing it soon tho.

y.e.a.h

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 22:56:16 GMT

*********************

all the little things that annoyed you
so much are the things you`ll miss
the most when he`s gone <|3

& THAT DUMB PH0T0GRAPH
BRiNGS TEARS TO MY EYES.
<\3

and i swear.. it's crazy
how he can act
like nothing ever
happened.

Doesn`t it feel so awkward
seeing him in the hallway &
pretending you don`t see him?

Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

have you ever wanted to ask a question
but you didn’t cause you knew your heart
wouldn’t be able to handle the answer?

*********************

Monday, March 13, 2006

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 15:21:29 GMT

lock me in my room with him
& you'll hear more than a
herbal essence commercial

Survey =]

Sun, 12 Mar 2006 20:49:12 GMT

1. Slept in lingerie?: no
2. Taken a shower with someone?: no
3. Made out with a member of the same sex?: no
4. Drove a car?: no
5. Stole anything?: yes, small stupid things
6. Been in love?: yes <3
7. Been dumped?: yes
8. Stolen money from a friend/family member?: yes
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met?: no
10. Been in a fist fight with a member of the opposite sex?: my brother
11. Snuck out of your/someones house?: yes
12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back?: yes
13. Been arrested for something you were innocent of?: no
14. Screamed at a stranger?: no
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere?: almost
16. Left your house with out telling your parents?: yes
17. Had a crush on your neighbor?: yes ew
18. Ditched school to do something more fun?: no
19. Slept in a bed with a member of the opposite sex?: no
20. Lost a friend?: yeah
21. Been on a plane?: no
22. Been to an island?: no
23. Slept in until 3?: yes
24. Love someone or miss someone right now?: yes <333
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by?: yes
26. Made a snow angel?: yes
27. Played dress up?: yes
28. Cheated while playing a game?: yes
29. Been lonely?: yes
30. Kissed more than 1 person in one night?: yes
31. Been to a club?: no
32. Felt an earthquake?: no
33. Touched a snake?: yes
34. Ran a red light?: no
35. Been suspended from school?: no
36. Had detention?: yes
37. Been in a car accident?: no
38. Hated the way you look?: yes; everyday
39. Made yourself throw up?: yes
40. Crawled through a window?: yes when i was locked out
41. Been lost?: yes
42. Been to the opposite side of the country?: no
43. Felt like dying?: yes
44. Cried yourself to sleep?: yes
46. Sang karaoke?: yes
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't?: yes
48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose?: no
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue?: yes
50. Kissed in the rain?: no
51. Sang in the shower?: yes
52. Made love in a car?: no
53. Had a dream that you married someone?: yes
54. Glued your hand to something?: yes
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole?: no
56. Ever gone to school partially naked?: no
57. Been a cheerleader?: yes
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone?: yes
61. Played lacrosse?: yeah in gym ; ew
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on?: no
64. Broken your arm?: no
65. Been incredibly amused by something that was not funny?: yes
66. Laugh so hard you cried?: yes
67. Mooned/flashed someone?: haha yeah
68. Cheated on a test?: yes
69. Forgotten your friend's birthday?: no
71. Done something dumb while drunk?: no
73. Blacked out from taking a hard drug?: no
74. Played a prank on someone?: yes
75. Gone to a late night movie?: yes
76. Made love to anything not human?: no
77. Failed a class?: yeah
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat: no
80. Buried your friend in the snow? yes
81. Celebrate the 4th of J.u.l.y?: yes
82. Thrown strange objects at another person?: yes
83. Felt like killing someone?: yes
84. Run away?: tried
85. Been homeschooled?: no
86. Got a piercing in a place other than your ears?: no
87. Cut your own hair?: no
89. Made a parent cry?: yeah
90. Cried over someone you loved?: yes
91. Owned more than 5 cds by one band?: no
92. Dated someone more than once?: yes
93. Had/Have a dog?: yes
94. Have wanted to cuddle forever?: yes
95. Smoked a cigarette?: no
96. Been in a band?: I wish
97. Are you a virgin?: brett, what do you think? lol
98. Broken a CD?: yeah
99. Shot a gun?: yes ;; bb gun
100. Wanted someone but could never have them?: yes

Really sick & bored..

Sat, 11 Mar 2006 00:24:39 GMT

if you had to chose between someone you love
or someone who loves you, pick the person who
loves you because you can learn to love someone,
but you can't make someone love you back.

it takes both sunshine & rain to make a rainbow

when your life falls apart always remember
that I will be The One who will stay to help
you pick the pieces up && when the rest
of the world walks out on you remember
not to close the door because I am The One who
will be walking in to help you through it all .

life is like photography.
we use the negatives to develope.

Defintion of loves:
much love- just friends
luv ya- that person cares for you
luv u- just a little more
love u- the person does love you
i love u- really do
i love you- really really do

remember, i will be there when
your life goes hectic&wrong. i'm
always here to help you - i've
been here all along. =]

some people make the world

special just by being in it.

Never think you're nothing.
Never cry at night over not being pretty enough.
Never tell yourself you'll never be good enough.
Because to someone, your're everything.
To someone, you're gorgeous.
To someone you are the world.

-Reminds me of Brett

i guess when you`re young first impressions
are everything sometimes you miss who a person really is
-Boy Meets World

.&& if you ever wonder how a
girl survives, just look at
who's by her side =)

You know it's changing & it's breaking your heart..
There's nothing you can do except watch it fall apart

usted es justo qué ¨e estado esperando
"you're just what I've been waiting for"

<3 <3 <3 <3 <3

i could be in the absolute worst mood
ever & not want to talk to anyone.. but boy,
do my feelings change when i see your
b e a u t i f u l f a c e <3

sometimes you gotta stop & remember
that you're not gonna be young forever
think smart. have fun. stay true
& dont ever grow up =)

THE 3 L's OF LiFE;
[ .live.laugh.love. ]

I want to be happy
with who i am, but
i don't know how.

hold on to what you love,
stay true to what you know
take everything you dream of
and never let it go

& i`m the type of girl who would
wear his sweatshirt just because
it smelled like him x3

Came home early today

Thu, 09 Mar 2006 18:05:18 GMT

Tuesday, March 07, 2006

Tue, 07 Mar 2006 20:13:29 GMT

i wanna hold your hand
& spend my nights with you.'

treasure every moment,
take nothing for granted.

&& im the girl who will burst out
laughing in DEAD SiLENCE because
of something that happened the day
BEFORE .. <3

As long as there's two of us,
we've got the world & all it's charms,
& when the world is through with us,
we've got each other's arms

rester avec moi jamais
( stay with me forever ) `` <3

and everything that she ever wanted,
she found in him. <3

it's a mystery,the way he
looks at her,should be a
romance movie. <3

the sparkle in his eyes,
makes her whole day better.

i know i'm made of mistakes. disappointments.
and failures. but i promise you there's a part of
me that is actually worth keeping.

like a movie scene,
in the sweetest dream,
i've pictured us together<3

i can't look at my reflection because
i no longer know who is looking back.

i have fallen in love with you -- x3
it's as simple & as complicated as that

beauty is a curse on the world.
it keeps us from seeing who the real monsters are.

we fall for boys who
give us pretty words
& false hopes.

never say goodbye, because goodbye
means going away, and going away means
forgetting..

you can always re-take a class,
but you can never re-live a party. [;

it takes both sunshine & rain to make a rainbow.

Monday, March 06, 2006

Mon, 06 Mar 2006 00:02:42 GMT

Goodbye is the absolute hardest thing to say
cause you have to walk away with just a memory
& the memories fade

when you love someone you`ll do [ anything ]
all the crazyy things that you cant explain *
you`ll deny the truth * believe a lie * give
everything & not think twice *' you`ll
risk it [[ all ]] no matter what may come *` you
*'feel it deep inside that nothing else could
ever change your mind * you cant sleep at
night knowing that he's yours * t h i s.is.l o v e

Sometimes life doesn`t go the way you thought it would.
So it`s your job to take what you`ve got & make the best of it.
Stop complaining & have fun. You`re missing out on so much
by feeling sorry for yourself. Go out & live your life
cause you only get one shot at it.

We were dancing in the middle of the room.
To us it was just us, & the music. I`m pretty sure music was playing,
I just can`t remember it. The only thing I can remember was being
there with him, holding him & him holding me back, breathing him,
& seeing him. I wanted to cry it was so perfect.